Day 28- August 5, 2011--Powerless

Everyday I thought about getting on here and letting you know where I was at on this journey.  Most days, in the last two weeks, I actually have not been sure where I have been.   That may confuse some of you, but other's get it.  Wow!  What a roller coaster of emotions and thoughts.  Rough for a lot of people around me too.  Wierd, the way things kind of spread.  I can tell you that in the last two weeks I have been barely able to slow down.  I am grateful for my full life.  I believe the God that I understand today did that to help me make it thru some of the feelings.  Guilt and Sadness for those who chose to go the easy route.  Like I have some kind of control or power right?  What ego I am displaying by playing my guilt and shame cards.  I am powerless and sometimes need to be reminded of that.  I am human and the experiences I have had in the last two weeks have reminded me of that.  My brain is definitely not my friend.  In the past I used to run and hide from it.  Today it still steers me wrong, but I try to get more light shined on it to make the crazy run and hide :-)